To him

Did you know that only two people in this world have made me cry?

My mother, and you.

So, congrats on making an exclusive list.

You’re carved your name into my soul, for better or worse.

Maybe one day we’ll get married

And I’ll keep the memory of those tears in a box, just like the rest.

Or maybe we’ll drift apart

And those tears will protect me from trying to come back.

I’ve had days where the pain is so bad that it takes everything for me to not end it all

And wouldn’t you know, the same people have caused those too.

Maybe it’s me.

Maybe it’s something about who I am that just begs to be torn a part

Maybe I’m more beautiful in pieces

All I know is that the people who promised to care

Only do it on their terms

Or not at all

You were supposed to prove me wrong

Sometimes I hold out hope you will.

By R. Regan McCall, written 11 August 2022